Current mood:

frustrated

Is That So Much to Ask?
I'm beginning to get really frustrated with this whole guy issue. I know that I REALLY REALLY like him and that this is not just an ordinary little crush that girls get every other day. I've talked about it with people and I've thought about it for hours and hours. I've prayed about it and asked for guidance signs and assurance from God that what I'm feeling is not just ordinary. Everything I see just leads me right back to him. People who know us both think we'd be perfect for each other, like Katie for instance, but I still don't want to take that leap of faith and tell him when I know very well that he could break my heart and then of course lose his friendship as well. Why does love have to be so difficult? Why can't the guy (or girl if you're a guy) just be ready for you when you are and then everything will, not necessarily be perfect, but be wonderful and full of love and change and growing within eachother and yourself. I don't want the fairytale so to speak. I know there will be problems and obstacles, but I want the passion and the sparks. I want the faith in each other and God that everything will be ok if you just believe in what you know in your heart to be right. Now really, I ask you, is that so much to ask?